My health journey, like so many people's, has been and up-and-down love affair with the scale and clothing sizes. I was a cute, active kid who slowly started putting on weight until the taunting of other cute, active kids made me so self-conscious that I quit my activities and became an overweight adolescent.
I lived in over-sized, unattractive clothes and had a low self-worth until I traveled to Australia with a student ambassador program in 10th grade. While there I was able to expand my group of friends beyond my own school and I became more talkative, friendly, confident and just happier. I kept a more active and social lifestyle after this, and soon found myself at my lowest weight. I felt beautiful, fit and self-confident.
Then college hit. And by college I really mean cheeseburgers, beer, late-night pizza and vodka. I had a great time - but the weight I had lost through having an active lifestyle soon reappeared because of horrible nutrition. I kept my confidence and positive attitude, though. Gone was the girl who was ridiculed to loneliness and laziness from my junior high years. I noticed my clothing getting larger, but I didn't pay much mind to it.
Until I studied abroad my junior year in the south of France. I was surrounded by gorgeous, skinny, healthy people and I simply felt like I didn't fit in. Through walking around town and to school everyday and eating la puree (pureed vegetable soup, prepared by my incredibly healthy host mother) five nights a week, I once again lost weight and felt terrific! I fit in smaller sizes and when I looked in the mirror I knew I was once again shrinking to a healthy weight.
But, as had happened before, when I left that situation where my food choices were being made for me, I once again put the weight back on. Putting the weight back on didn't make me hate myself or my reflection; I had gained self-confidence already and I kept it, but I did find myself wishing I could look differently.
Through the weight gain I met Jake, fell in love and got married. Then, one January day in 2013 I decided to step on a scale... and it's there, more than anywhere else, that my transformation story begins.