Destructible Walls

I totally feel like this is so true!  We absolutely do live in the walls we create around ourselves!

Before starting to work out and eat healthy, I had an idea of who I was.  I was a girl who would always be bigger.  I wasn't destined to be a model and I wasn't born to be very fit.  I've always been able to wear clothes in a way that my larger tummy wasn't very noticeable so it didn't bother me a great deal.  Slowly I would buy bigger pant sizes but a lot of the times I blamed this on the clothes companies changing their sizing systems!  (Talk about denial, huh?!)

I knew myself to be someone that loved to read, watch movies, play games and hang out.  I didn't enjoy playing sports very much and I wasn't very outdoors-y.  I'd choose to go to a movie over play tennis because I just didn't want to get dirty.  

These were all the things I knew about myself.  They were factual, just like the fact that I was born in August.  I couldn't change them, so why try.  

All these things came back to slap me in the face when I stepped on the scale in January and it said 249 pounds.  This was no longer a simple case of corporate size-rigging or water weight.  This was something I had done to myself by lying to myself.  

The truth is, I never was any of those things I believed myself to be.  I can be in shape, I can go down in sizes rather than buying larger sizes every couple of months, and I actually do enjoy working out!  I had told myself all those other things because I was afraid to try to change.  I was afraid I would fail at losing weight and I was afraid that I could never be the person I wanted to be.  I built these self-truths up as walls around myself so I couldn't be tempted to try - because if I didn't try, I couldn't fail.  

No wonder my clothes stopped fitting me!

Trying to change, trying to get your life back in your own control, trying to defeat the negativity and focus on positive thoughts & trying to overcome your own doubts can be the hardest and scariest thing imaginable.  I can seem like failure is waiting around the door to come out and grab you - but it's not!  Your own future is in YOUR hands.  It's not some elusive dream; it's your own creation!  You can make your future as fulfilling, fun, successful and inspiring as you want to!  

I know it's hard, and I know doing it by yourself can be discouraging.  But you don't have to do it alone!  I am doing it too and there are a ton of people in your exact same shoes - we can do it together!  Email me at ashleykrek@gmail.com today for more information on how you can join up to be in my next challenge group - we WILL make your dreams a reality!!