I totally feel like this is so true! We absolutely do live in the walls we create around ourselves!
Before starting to work out and eat healthy, I had an idea of who I was. I was a girl who would always be bigger. I wasn't destined to be a model and I wasn't born to be very fit. I've always been able to wear clothes in a way that my larger tummy wasn't very noticeable so it didn't bother me a great deal. Slowly I would buy bigger pant sizes but a lot of the times I blamed this on the clothes companies changing their sizing systems! (Talk about denial, huh?!)
I knew myself to be someone that loved to read, watch movies, play games and hang out. I didn't enjoy playing sports very much and I wasn't very outdoors-y. I'd choose to go to a movie over play tennis because I just didn't want to get dirty.
These were all the things I knew about myself. They were factual, just like the fact that I was born in August. I couldn't change them, so why try.
All these things came back to slap me in the face when I stepped on the scale in January and it said 249 pounds. This was no longer a simple case of corporate size-rigging or water weight. This was something I had done to myself by lying to myself.
The truth is, I never was any of those things I believed myself to be. I can be in shape, I can go down in sizes rather than buying larger sizes every couple of months, and I actually do enjoy working out! I had told myself all those other things because I was afraid to try to change. I was afraid I would fail at losing weight and I was afraid that I could never be the person I wanted to be. I built these self-truths up as walls around myself so I couldn't be tempted to try - because if I didn't try, I couldn't fail.
No wonder my clothes stopped fitting me!
Trying to change, trying to get your life back in your own control, trying to defeat the negativity and focus on positive thoughts & trying to overcome your own doubts can be the hardest and scariest thing imaginable. I can seem like failure is waiting around the door to come out and grab you - but it's not! Your own future is in YOUR hands. It's not some elusive dream; it's your own creation! You can make your future as fulfilling, fun, successful and inspiring as you want to!
I know it's hard, and I know doing it by yourself can be discouraging. But you don't have to do it alone! I am doing it too and there are a ton of people in your exact same shoes - we can do it together! Email me at firstname.lastname@example.org today for more information on how you can join up to be in my next challenge group - we WILL make your dreams a reality!!