Destructible Walls

I totally feel like this is so true!  We absolutely do live in the walls we create around ourselves!

Before starting to work out and eat healthy, I had an idea of who I was.  I was a girl who would always be bigger.  I wasn't destined to be a model and I wasn't born to be very fit.  I've always been able to wear clothes in a way that my larger tummy wasn't very noticeable so it didn't bother me a great deal.  Slowly I would buy bigger pant sizes but a lot of the times I blamed this on the clothes companies changing their sizing systems!  (Talk about denial, huh?!)

I knew myself to be someone that loved to read, watch movies, play games and hang out.  I didn't enjoy playing sports very much and I wasn't very outdoors-y.  I'd choose to go to a movie over play tennis because I just didn't want to get dirty.  

These were all the things I knew about myself.  They were factual, just like the fact that I was born in August.  I couldn't change them, so why try.  

All these things came back to slap me in the face when I stepped on the scale in January and it said 249 pounds.  This was no longer a simple case of corporate size-rigging or water weight.  This was something I had done to myself by lying to myself.  

The truth is, I never was any of those things I believed myself to be.  I can be in shape, I can go down in sizes rather than buying larger sizes every couple of months, and I actually do enjoy working out!  I had told myself all those other things because I was afraid to try to change.  I was afraid I would fail at losing weight and I was afraid that I could never be the person I wanted to be.  I built these self-truths up as walls around myself so I couldn't be tempted to try - because if I didn't try, I couldn't fail.  

No wonder my clothes stopped fitting me!

Trying to change, trying to get your life back in your own control, trying to defeat the negativity and focus on positive thoughts & trying to overcome your own doubts can be the hardest and scariest thing imaginable.  I can seem like failure is waiting around the door to come out and grab you - but it's not!  Your own future is in YOUR hands.  It's not some elusive dream; it's your own creation!  You can make your future as fulfilling, fun, successful and inspiring as you want to!  

I know it's hard, and I know doing it by yourself can be discouraging.  But you don't have to do it alone!  I am doing it too and there are a ton of people in your exact same shoes - we can do it together!  Email me at ashleykrek@gmail.com today for more information on how you can join up to be in my next challenge group - we WILL make your dreams a reality!! 

1 comment:

Heather Marie said...

Loved this and it is so so true. We think we can't do so many things but we are actually so caps me! Thanks for the motivational post