This is a dumb post. I'm ok with admitting that. Not because peanut butter is dumb, and not because I think I'm dumb, but the thought process that led me to being able to write this post was dumb. So, therefore, a dumb post!
Now that we've cleared that up, I'll continue.
When I first heard about clean eating, I was a bit skeptical. It seemed like it made a lot of sense - I could understand that eating fruits, vegetables and cutting out pop, Egg McMuffins and Oreos would benefit me a great deal in the long run. I was ready to try and live a healthier life. The part that was difficult for me to wrap my head around was that I am actually the type of person that could do it. I had lived my entire life without really paying much attention to how or what I ate - who was I to all of a sudden start changing that?
I was comfortable (even though I really wasn't) and I couldn't picture myself doing what I knew I should do. So, I dragged my feet for a bit. Over the DUMBEST things. (Again, back to this being a dumb post). What, exactly, caused me to drag my feet?
Yep, good ole-fashioned butter made from peanuts. I was reading everywhere I looked for healthy food advice that Natural peanut butter is the way to go. The ingredient list should just be peanuts. Maybe a little bit of salt. But really, just peanuts. Not a list a mile long of things that I couldn't pronounce let alone tell you where they came from. But, in my mind, I wasn't ready to accept that I was really going to change how I ate - I couldn't really wrap my head around the fact that things needed to change - both big things and little things! So, even after I started eating clean, I didn't buy natural peanut butter. I stuck with the peanut butter I was used to. Every day for a morning snack I was having an apple with peanut butter, and every time I went to the store I replaced an empty jar of peanut butter with the same type - not natural.
Until one day I just tried it. I sucked it up and bought the natural peanut butter. It was a bit strange to have to stir the peanut butter before I used it because it had settled, but I dealt with it. And, much to my surprise, I couldn't taste a difference! It was still the peanut butter I was used to. Buying the healthier peanut butter didn't change my identity. But, in some small way, maybe it did. Because, at least in my own head, I became the type of person who buys food that's healthy rather than just comfort food. I tested the waters and learned something about myself in the process.
So, yes, maybe it was dumb that it took me that long to make a healthy change. But, now I can say that I MADE THE CHANGE!!! I'm learning to live a healthy lifestyle, but learning that healthy doesn't mean scary, or gross, or weird. It just means healthy. And that's a pretty good thing to be :)